I've spent months saying I'm ready to have this baby, and now that the time is upon me, I'm feeling unprepared. Can you ever be totally ready for another life entering and rearranging yours? The baby is still some form of sideways, and so a scheduled C-section is in the works. The part of that sentence I don't like isn't the C-section part. I've done that before, I know what to expect. It's the scheduled
part I have a problem with. I don't like picking the baby's birthday. Even if you don't believe in all sorts of things that decide who you are as a person by the day and time you were born, there are plenty of people who do believe and will judge you accordingly. Aunt Donna has already told me this baby will be a taurus and she doesn't get along with taurus girls.
When I first moved to Fresno there was a girl in the enology program that had this software on her computer where you entered your birthday and time you were born and it spat out of sorts of personality traits. One of the first times I met her we were all talking and it came up in conversation (she was very sneaky) when my birthday was and what time I was born. Through the course of hanging out with all these new people, this girl and I didn't have the best rapport, and then later I found out about the computer program and was always mad that I had been prejudged. It's highly likely this girl and I just weren't meant to be best friends, but I always blame that horoscope.
John took Cecilia to his parent's house for a few days and I have the house to myself. I was looking forward to it for more reasons than one, but now, here I sit at 6:30 a.m. on a Saturday morning, blogging, and doing laundry, and missing my family. She has the flu, and I know I can't do anything more for her than they are doing down there for her to help her feel better, and it would be best if I didn't get the flu, but I would like to be able to help him and her. That's what I do, that is one of my personality traits- I'm a helper. Don't need astrology to know that.
What happened to sleeping in? =(
The picture above is the coming home outfit for the new baby. Cecilia was born in the winter, so she had a red velvet dress
. This baby is a spring baby, so she gets eyelet and sandals. I picture her tiny wrinkled feet to look so amusing in those little sandals. =)
I'm off the clean the world. This nesting stage for me has taken possession of my body. Last week I cleaned, organized and color coordinated John's sock drawer, and that clean deep freeze full of nicely stacked packages of beef just makes my heart sing. On the agenda for today- baby laundry, cleaning my car, planting flowers in the pots on the front porch, renting and watching either the Secret Life of Bees or Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2 from the Red Box, and what I am most looking forward to is a big hug from my husband and child.
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